...........but honestly speaking it wouldn’t make any fucking difference to me; whether I get a chance to meet her or talk to her or not. The simple reason is that whatever I have for her is like ageless or rather eternal I should say.
We always have an argument on my this belief also. She has the stand that this is the phase of life, (she has this damn habit of acting so nanny), you will forget me someday and will look behind and then ridicule.
But did I ever ask her that when she is so sure about that, then why she is continuing with me? Why she came back twice, and that too without any cogent reasons? She has told me couple of times that she is very uncomfortable talking to guys who have a strong liking for her. But why she is gratified talking to me when she is very much aware about the deep, tender and ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude I have for her? She should have gone, but she is still there.
And I am also there, living in my labyrinth of discomposure and wilderness. Inspite, being an apostate, I do pray sometimes. And I often wish to bring an end to all what is going on between her and me. Its not that I don’t want to keep on going with her, but the fact is that I can’t support that. She knows about my mentality and my lifestyle. It’s desirable to end such things before they start. Prevention has always been better than cure.
She is young, independent, and confident; has found a partner, who is also well established, so she just has to give some time and space for themselves. And life would be waiting for them.
Hoping to see my prayer materialize.
-Amen
We always have an argument on my this belief also. She has the stand that this is the phase of life, (she has this damn habit of acting so nanny), you will forget me someday and will look behind and then ridicule.
But did I ever ask her that when she is so sure about that, then why she is continuing with me? Why she came back twice, and that too without any cogent reasons? She has told me couple of times that she is very uncomfortable talking to guys who have a strong liking for her. But why she is gratified talking to me when she is very much aware about the deep, tender and ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude I have for her? She should have gone, but she is still there.
And I am also there, living in my labyrinth of discomposure and wilderness. Inspite, being an apostate, I do pray sometimes. And I often wish to bring an end to all what is going on between her and me. Its not that I don’t want to keep on going with her, but the fact is that I can’t support that. She knows about my mentality and my lifestyle. It’s desirable to end such things before they start. Prevention has always been better than cure.
She is young, independent, and confident; has found a partner, who is also well established, so she just has to give some time and space for themselves. And life would be waiting for them.
Hoping to see my prayer materialize.
-Amen
